Something really cool happened yesterday.
Well actually you might not even think it's that cool, but it makes me excited so I'm going to share it anyways.
I had a huge realization of how much I love this website and everything I created involving it. You'd think that this would be a clear and obvious thing for me. But it's been no secret that I've been confused and in a weird place with what I'm doing on here for quite a while. I've been evolving and transforming and along with that is coming this new realization about how much I freaking love Create N Plate. I really do.
There have been many times where I've found myself wanting to delete it all and just disappear from the internet. I've told Darrin this multiple times and each time he tells me not to do it. So I didn't. I don't know why, I just listened to him and kept doing my thing. Then a few weeks ago I was telling my friend about my feelings and he said, "Why do you want to delete it? What makes you feel that way?"
Those two questions made me stop and think. I didn't answer him right away because I wasn't sure what to say. I thought about it and then we talked about it. That night I realized that I don't want to throw this all away and that's the reason why I never deleted anything in the first place.
So yesterday I went into the kitchen to make a rawnola recipe. I've never attempted rawnola before but that's a good thing. Trying something different. I like doing that. I created (and perfected) an awesome rawnola recipe. I set up and had a rawnola photoshoot just like I've done for all of the recipes before. But this time was different than usual. This time I had fun. I enjoyed it. A lot. It felt like it did back when I first started Create N Plate. I loved it so much in the beginning. I was so excited about it that I'd tell everyone I came across to check out my site. I was proud of my work. Since the beginning though something shifted. I don't know what exactly. I think I just started focusing on the wrong things and lost touch with why I really love doing this.
I'm coming around though and reigniting that flame once again, the flame that burned so fiercely for my love and desire to create awesome vegan recipes and an overall positive, uplifting website. It's happening and I am feeling so awesome about it all. Maybe you can tell by how much I've written on this simple rawnola recipe.
It's all great though; the sun shining through my window, my reignited Create N Plate flame, the endless possibilities of a new day, and of course this rawnola recipe.
But that's enough for now. Let's move on to the pumpkin spice rawnola that has brought you here in the first place.